"Why I Starve Myself" - Diaries/Blogs

 This website attached below is of a blog that i found which is all about Ana and Mia- it explains how to be bulmic or anorexic, it tells you about the commandments of those with eating disorders- it goes to the extreme... The further i go into this the more scary and frightoning it becomes- Its another world

"Why I starve myself?

• Because I can
• Because I'm the hunger artist
• Because I want to
• Because i van accomplish this, I can do anything!
• Because off all the people in my life who die of jealousy when they see the way I look
• Because it makes me feel brand new every day!
• Because I just won't quit
• Because I have wanted to be this way forever
• Because I don't have any time to waste on food
• Because I can do anything I put my mind to
• Because I have the willpower
• Because it's my life
• Because it's my choice
• Because of my next birthday
• Because it's me. And though I don't advise it to anyone else; I'm too thin, and I don't eat enough, and that's me, and I love it" 

These website i designed to reel girls into becoming anorexic or bulimic, the people who design them call themselves ana and mia (short for Anorexia And Bulimia), the reel in girls from the age of 12-26.Why do girls feel like it, i found lots of photos of very slim models and there "THINSPIRATION" which is actresses and models (celebrities) who are skinny and who are made to look good through means of personal trainers, eating disorders and Photoshop. They are the inspiration (thinspiration) to young girls today, these girls and boys strive to be like them they truly believe that if they where fat they would have no friends, no boyfriend and wouldn't get anywhere in life. Below is a few of the website i have visited:

• http://proanalifestyle.blogspot.com/search/label/Diary - this one is a blog, she explains everything and has letters from both "Mia & Ana" she has health tips and way to dealing with binging.
• www.prettythin.com/ -this is another way that girls and boys with eating disorders communicate with those who are going through the same thing- the like to share experiences about how they lose weight
• http://www.2medusa.com/2008/04/shocking-diary-of-young-pro-anamia-girl.html- this is actually not a website that i found but it is a shocking diary of a pro ana-mia girl. Above is a photo of her 10 commandments

• http://www.pro-ana-diary.com/thinspiration.html - this is a website which is actually in french but i went on the photos bit and it had "Thinspiration" - with just girls in their bones look at the website and you will see what i mean below i will put a few photos from it. 

These are images from the website, there are many more of celebrities/ models on the website.

Mia & Ana

This is a video explaining that there are blogs/ websites which all Bulimic and anorexic can go to and talk to each other- this video is really good because it explains a lot. I found this on YouTube whilst looking at another program which was how to be a size 0. I have also looked at the website, they have their own creeds (commandments) and they also have letters from ana (which is the short name for anorexia) and mia (which is the short name for bulimia), they are letters expressing how they are their only friend- underneath this is the letter. For one of my pieces i am going to recite the words of the letter and record them and create my own video with a voice over of my words.

LETTER FROM MIA:
Dear Partner,

"How are you? I thought I'd take a few minutes to introduce myself. I'm known by some as bulimia nervosa, but seeing how we'll become so close, you can just call me Mia. That's what my best friends call me. My loyal friends. Over time, you will become my loyal friend too. Sometimes you might feel more of a servant, but then you will think of all I do for you and remember that I am your only true friend. You know how everyone around you, all those girls, seem like they have it so easy, I hate that! And I hate for you to feel less, which is why from now on, I will provide you with encouragement, and inspiration to achieve what you thought you never could. Prove all the nasty comments wrong. Also, I cannot spend my life with someone not worthy...so you will have to prove yourself to me. I'll try to hang out with you as much as possible, but nobody will know. Only you will know when I'm around. You will know when you eat something, you will know when you see that chocolate cake on the counter, because I will in the back of your mind telling you things. Sometimes I will tell you not to eat it, and you will listen. Other times, you will disobey me and devour the entire cake. Then I will really make you feel guilty. You should have followed my orders! Now go and throw that cake up you FAT COW! How could you do that to yourself? You will take my comments to heart, and go into the bathroom, turn on the faucet, and force yourself to vomit. You will spend hours vomiting at times. Your face will be red, snot will pour, your eyes will be bloodshot, you jaw will hurt of swollen glands...serves you right! If you want to be my friend and get the full effect of what I can give you, you must follow my orders. You will soon learn that I am in control. Even when you don't do as I say, you can still hear me, screaming at you, telling you to work harder, telling you to take diet pills, telling you how fat you are, telling you what those people across the room are really whispering about. I am sure after a while of this, you will grow to hate me, but you will love me even more. You will love me so much you won't tell anyone about me. If you do, I risk being destroyed, and you don't want that do you? You will have invested so much of your time in me, that you will no longer have anyone else. You have no choice, me or complete solitude. If I'm gone, fat and cellulite will take my place. Which would you rather have? So you must not tell anyone about me. Even if you did, some people would likey not believe you and worse, think you are out for the attention. So hold your head high and look confident. With my help, you can look just as great as your favorite models and actresses. You can look better. I have to go now, but think of me often. Think of me all the time! I am the only one who TRULY wants you to feel loved. Remember that.


Sincerely,

Mia"

Model Diets- Trying a models routine for 1 Week

"The Foods that most catwalk model or commercial models eat are not special, not even super expensive. They are the same foods that most people choose to eat, or choose not to eat. Only that, super models know what their body needs... and feed only what their body needs. Beyond that, supermodels know that they should not eat more.
Here's a sneak preview of a model's food diary:
Beverages
1. Green tea. The caffeine in green tea aids in losing weight
2. Water. A wise supermodel knows that her body relies on water for slimming down.
3. Skimmed milk or low-fat milk
4. Black tea
5. Coffee
6. Peppermint tea
7. Iced skimmed latte
8. White wine
9. Berry extract
10. Aloe Juice
11. Chlorophyll
Desserts
1. Yogurt
2. Fruits such as watermelon, banana, grape, tomato, cranberry, blueberry and apple and olive
Snacks
1. Omelet of Egg white, tomato and spinach and goat cheese
2. Multi-grain toast
3. Steamed asparagus
Major meal
1. Cereals (for breakfast) with flaxseeds or crackers
2. A bowl of Lobster bisque
3. 2 pieces Gyoza
4. One piece scallop and spicy scallop roll and Clinton roll
5. Sushi
6. Turkey meatloaf with Brussels sprouts and mashed sweet potato
7. Pork tenderloin
8. Protein shakes with peanut butter and spirulina
9. Branzino combined with wilted kale and fava beans
10. Milanese eggs"

I am going to write my own models diary and play it out, for a whole week i am going to get one of my friends to take photos of me, i am going to go a strict die, the reason for me doing this is because i am a photographer i am always behind the camera and for me being in front is a very shocking and scary thought. I want this project to become personal to me, i want to experience what they experience.

 "Do Models Really Live off 'Coffee, Vodka, Cigarettes and Champagne'? 3C's diet, Kate Moss apparently told Lily Allen this is they way to diet. 
If you click on the link below - you can read the article. 
http://www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2009/aug/17/ask-hadley-diet-kate-moss
 10 commandments of Size Zero